Although the days have been hectic, I'm managing somehow. I'm sorry for the sudden announcement, but the other day I divorced my husband🙇🏻♀️ I'm sure we've both had a lot going on, but we've decided to continue to get along and divorce amicably🌸 I'm grateful to everyone who supported me. Thank you. …
What all humans have in common is that there are only 24 hours in a day. I want to live my life being grateful for the fact that I am alive, even if it is just for a day, an hour, a few minutes, or even just a few seconds.
Anyway, I'll let you know. A lot of things have happened since the article was published... Eventually my family found out (obviously), and I was no longer able to stay at home, but now, thanks to the support of many people in the religious world, I'm eating properly and have a place to live.
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A couple reminiscing about their parents
Akio Kuroshima (@kuroshimaaki) wrote an article about part of his life so far. I am still struggling with the trauma of the past, and I don't know what was right or wrong, or what is "good education"... But I think now that I am who I am now because of my past, and I think that's good.
Eating disorders are also very difficult to treat. If you don't face it for many years, you will get sick and try to avoid it by having an eating disorder. You may even think that if you don't get sick anymore, you will gain weight. This kind of thinking is very dangerous. You may even be afraid of getting better.
It's been a while! I'm sorry for not replying to your comments again! Just a little update. The other day, I explained to the psychiatrist I go to about my past experiences, although I can't tell him everything... It seems! I don't seem to have a developmental disorder. Lol I've felt something was off for a while, but...
BiSH / Rhythm [OFFiCiAL ViDEO]
Once I start thinking about it, I can't stop, and the "goal" is so far away that a sense of helplessness washes over me, but I hope I can get closer to it step by step, starting with small "objectives"... I think taking a detour is good too. I don't know if I can become the person I want to be, but right now I know who I want to be. And that's a really happy thing.
I have a constitution that always makes me dependent on something. When I lose that dependency, I try to find a new dependency. I want to break away from that kind of self, and there are other things I need to think about and do, right? It's very difficult to accept myself as unfulfilled... I end up wanting to depend on something, and I'm struggling.
I don't need anything ordinary / TENSONG [Official Music Video]
I wish I could do something for the second generation... I wish I could do something for those who have been abused... But I haven't yet faced my trauma, so when I remember it, it's painful, and I can't see anything, I can't say anything...💧
I'm fighting the desire to be destroyed.
My sense of guilt is probably the same as many second generation members of the Unification Church... Sex has been considered the worst thing, and I thought that when I "fell into hell", I was destined for hell. My family was dragged down with me. There was no turning back...
It's been a really long time since I took a slightly sexy selfie... I'm pretty embarrassed to take selfies at this age... I can't look at the camera...lol I've always been a sexy person, so I want to cherish these kinds of things every now and then💓 I'm me, and I think this kind of me is good👍🏻
My recent eating disorder symptoms: When I'm feeling good → I tend to become anorexic, I feel like I can do anything, I "misunderstand" that I'm feeling good, I don't realize that I'm forcing myself, I get addicted to the joy of losing weight, and my fear of eating increases, I "feel" like I can control myself...
Even in this environment, Tsugumi can still say, "My life is blessed," and I really admire her. Thank you for being alive. I want to be that kind of person too.
I can only empathize with the feelings of parents.
I also really like Rapunzel, and I think many second-generation religious people can relate to her. I was actually locked up in my house, so I know how scary it is to be free, and it takes a lot of courage! Freedom is scary. I made a lot of mistakes, but there were also a lot of wonderful things and things I could learn from them.
This song is so good ✨ Disney is the best 🫶🏻💓 I can relate to a lot of things about Rapunzel...
My bra was on inside out 😭 Oh no... This is the front 💓 The lemon charm is cute ٩(`・ω・´)و🍋
I'm sorry I haven't been able to reply to any comments recently💦 Also, I'm sorry for tweeting so many depressing things🙏🏻 I'm finally at the stage where I'm able to face my own problems, so I hope to move forward little by little👍🏻✨...
I think there was a twisted love for my mother, but I can't accept that there was love for my father. However, I was worried about my father, who was disliked by my sister, so I tried to love him in my own way. He reciprocated with violence, yelling, and betrayal. But what I want is fatherhood, and even now I want my father... I'm a daddy's girl.
Recently I went to an exhibition of my favorite illustrator🌸✨ I love Masami Ogura's (@oguramanju) use of color and his worldview, it's very soothing☺️ It gives me energy✨!! In particular, I like his work "Song that Becomes a Star"🌙✨
I participated in a social gathering held by General Incorporated Association Onara (@Onara_hope) for the first time🌸 It is an organization that carries out various activities for people who feel abused or have no place in their home, and for those who have experienced abuse✨ I had the opportunity to meet my idol Tsugumi Okazaki (@tsugumi_okazaki), who is an abuse survivor and the representative✨…
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I will be appearing in a talk show after the screening of [Gochamezakoze] and [Shin Gochamezakoze Still Halfway Through] on the 20th, which is the matinee screening. Together with the host, Koushido Matsumoto (@koushido), I hope to talk about the industry before the new AV law came into effect from the perspective of a former AV actress. Please look forward to it ☺️🌸
And this is a lump of wax that is stuck to the tatami mat and cannot be removed. It makes me feel uneasy thinking about how much the parents pray every day.
I'm going to show you a part of my parents' house. I've been back here for a while, and this is the kind of environment I'm currently spending my days in... I want you to know that this is a very rude thing to say to people who believe in this religion (and my parents), but I think my parents are also victims. So, if possible, please refrain from slandering my parents.
Sorry!! I'll correct that. It's not WHO, it's the World Medical Association (WMA)!
Now that I'm 34 years old, I've always questioned the things my parents did, but I always told myself that it was because they had "love" and "good intentions," so I didn't want to think of it as abuse.
It looks like you're laughing on one side, even though you're not laughing at all.
I've looked for it many times, but I don't know if I've missed it or if it's already gone... I'll look for it again after a while, but I'll stop for now because it's too hard on me mentally... Maybe you can't see it unless you register as a member. I don't recommend registering as a member, so if you're looking for it, don't go that far 😢...
A situation I found while searching for evidence of my mother.
My sister told me that my mother's testimony should be on the old Seishin Hospital website, but there is not much information... My mother met my father at a joint wedding for 6,000 couples. I was hospitalized because I had anorexia and couldn't eat anything. When my anorexia turned to bulimia, my mother believes that I was cured of my illness by spiritual grace...
Today, I met my sister for the first time in years and we were able to talk at length. Until now, we had avoided talking about our parents and the church because it was too painful for both of us, so I was glad that we were able to talk about what had happened in a cheerful and fun way☺️ I had known for a long time that my sister had also been going through a lot of hardship, so I didn't know how to talk to her until now...
I just looked at my medical history and I've been hospitalized at this hospital many times, but the longest I was there was one year and two months...
You can watch the anime from the same series as yesterday's comic here ↓ Since it's aimed at children, some of the content is changed to be gentle and funny, and sometimes it's touching, but... so please watch it while thinking about the children who are being mind-controlled.
I'm not surprised at all, but if this is true, it's pretty bad... It breaks my heart to know there are so many victims...
Do you know anyone who knows "Ganbare! Songjaman!"? That was the only manga I could read, right? And "Second Coming Messiah"...
Here is the manga: Satan's Temptation
A manga made for children by the Unification Church (I read it when I was little too) It is said that when second generation Christians look at porn or erotic images, Satan invades and it is a sin that directly leads to the fall of mankind. Here is the second generation Blessed One who was in a lewd world that violates the most sacred love of God (*´ω`*)ノ lol
My eating disorder was my only escape route, and my repeated hospitalizations were just a way for me to get away from my parents. It was the only thing I had. My eating disorder ruined my life, but at the same time, it saved me... Even now, the habit is so ingrained that I can't seem to break free, but by looking back on my life, I feel like I'm moving forward little by little.
That's true... Looking back, my father's behavior was abnormal... My father also had a complicated family situation and thought about killing himself when he was in high school, and it was the church that helped him out at that time. I think now that my father probably couldn't face his own problems well...
Disbanding also brings with it the pain of realizing that the path I have walked should never have happened, but... this is the reality... Abuse of patients is absolutely unacceptable, and I will do my best to spread that message even a little.☺️✊🏻
I'm very sorry that I've been tweeting so much about the church and my past recently, and the content has been so heavy. I'm sure people might think I'm a tragic heroine because I'm tweeting things like this, but by talking about my past, I'm able to move forward...
Since followers learn from the guru, many followers and second generation members have experienced domestic violence, emotional abuse, and abuse... Can you build a happy family when the guru's family is falling apart? ...or so I think...
Thank you for believing and hearing my story. We have to warn people and make a notice of what kind of place this hospital and Cheongpyeong were.
Apparently there was a big earthquake in Taiwan! Are people in Taiwan okay? I also have relatives in Taiwan, so I'm worried 💧 People in Okinawa have also been issued a tsunami warning, so I'm sure they'll be very worried this morning... 😢 Please be careful and criticize!