I recently cut my hair ✂︎❤️🩹 A-side⇄B-side
I have some extremely childish sides to me, but when you meet me in person I'm actually quite adult. When we get closer I'm still a child... but I also have adult sides... so when I call myself an adult I'm still a child... but when I accept that I'm a child I'm an adult.
I think this is exactly it... Various types of abuse, religious abuse, neglect, psychological abuse, and accumulated trauma cause the "fourth developmental disorder"... #complexptsd #developmentaldisorder #secondgenerationreligion
I like the faded look of hydrangeas...
I guess I have to focus on fun things now... I'm not good at thinking about difficult things 🧏🏻♀️❤️🩹 Ehe, I don't think about things that can't be helped even if I think about them. That's already the answer. Recently, when I have flashbacks or my head is bursting, I smell my favorite scent, enjoy the "now" and heal myself. Palo Santo is my favorite scent.
I think it's okay to have days when I don't smile. There's no need to force myself to smile, and that's not me. There's nothing to be ashamed of, and it's not a bad thing. This kind of me is also me. I think it's good to be that way.
I felt like it was all messed up...🍓 (※The strawberries were delicious though)
Both DAY1 and DAY2 were amazing❤️🔥
It's getting exciting❤️🔥‼️The seats are close, so close( ˙ ꒳ ˙三 ˙ ꒳ ˙ )❤️🔥‼️
He's here again today ❤️🔥‼️
Of course he's coming❤️🔥( ˙ ꒳ ˙三 ˙ ꒳ ˙ )‼ ️‼ ️
The NHK drama "God's Child Tweets" won the Broadcasting Culture Foundation Award, Drama Division Grand Prize ✨ Congratulations!!! Let's celebrate with everyone involved in the drama and the second generation religious believers involved in the drama with a toast 🍻✨!!
It would be helpful if you could @remove arguments💓 I don't want to see arguments🧏🏻♀️❤️🩹 Please💓
I was so exhausted...lol bye!!
Well done everyone👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻Thank you🙇🏻♀️🙇🏻♀️🙇🏻♀️💓 I couldn't keep quiet for a bit! Let's take a break🚬❤️🩹 Thank you to everyone who reported this.
I'm going to stop interacting with you soon~ Because I'm wasting my time🧏🏻♀️❤️🩹 Right now, I'm living a really fun life, so my time is precious⏳✨
Ooh (^ω^) You're so funny~ Reaching someone has a greater value than money can offer~✨ Is money the only thing you have in your head (^ω^)?
Yes, very ヽ(。•ω•。)ノ❤️🩹 I was having sex with my chest held out, but somehow (*˘▿˘✽) (Don't worry, I'm used to being told this so it's no big deal.)
There are people who will take action even if I don't take action ~ What a shame 🧏🏻♀️❤️🩹 lol
This is the shit. Ehhh🧏🏻♀️❤️🩹
It's not about the money. Sometimes I don't even get paid. I don't think you understand how much courage it takes to talk about your trauma to the media, and how mentally draining it is. But someone has to say it. We're sacrificing a lot to tell people what needs to be said. You're the one who's most pitiful.
Can someone please report this?
A lot has happened, but I'm doing well. It's been difficult, but I'm still alive. I'm currently trying to keep a distance from my family.
It may seem trivial, but it's actually quite important. When I'm farting, I don't even know where I am, so when someone farts at a time like that, it's so funny and makes me laugh, and it makes me realize, "I'm not in pain right now, I'm here now." It's very effective👍🏻❤️🩹 Laughter is the best, isn't it?✨
Although the days have been hectic, I'm managing somehow. I'm sorry for the sudden announcement, but the other day I divorced my husband🙇🏻♀️ I'm sure we've both had a lot going on, but we've decided to continue to get along and divorce amicably🌸 I'm grateful to everyone who supported me. Thank you. …
What all humans have in common is that there are only 24 hours in a day. I want to live my life being grateful for the fact that I am alive, even if it is just for a day, an hour, a few minutes, or even just a few seconds.
Anyway, I'll let you know. A lot of things have happened since the article was published... Eventually my family found out (obviously), and I was no longer able to stay at home, but now, thanks to the support of many people in the religious world, I'm eating properly and have a place to live.
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A couple reminiscing about their parents
Akio Kuroshima (@kuroshimaaki) wrote an article about part of his life so far. I am still struggling with the trauma of the past, and I don't know what was right or wrong, or what is "good education"... But I think now that I am who I am now because of my past, and I think that's good.
Eating disorders are also very difficult to treat. If you don't face it for many years, you will get sick and try to avoid it by having an eating disorder. You may even think that if you don't get sick anymore, you will gain weight. This kind of thinking is very dangerous. You may even be afraid of getting better.
It's been a while! I'm sorry for not replying to your comments again! Just a little update. The other day, I explained to the psychiatrist I go to about my past experiences, although I can't tell him everything... It seems! I don't seem to have a developmental disorder. Lol I've felt something was off for a while, but...
BiSH / Rhythm [OFFiCiAL ViDEO]
Once I start thinking about it, I can't stop, and the "goal" is so far away that a sense of helplessness washes over me, but I hope I can get closer to it step by step, starting with small "objectives"... I think taking a detour is good too. I don't know if I can become the person I want to be, but right now I know who I want to be. And that's a really happy thing.
I have a constitution that always makes me dependent on something. When I lose that dependency, I try to find a new dependency. I want to break away from that kind of self, and there are other things I need to think about and do, right? It's very difficult to accept myself as unfulfilled... I end up wanting to depend on something, and I'm struggling.
I don't need anything ordinary / TENSONG [Official Music Video]
I wish I could do something for the second generation... I wish I could do something for those who have been abused... But I haven't yet faced my trauma, so when I remember it, it's painful, and I can't see anything, I can't say anything...💧
I'm fighting the desire to be destroyed.
My sense of guilt is probably the same as many second generation members of the Unification Church... Sex has been considered the worst thing, and I thought that when I "fell into hell", I was destined for hell. My family was dragged down with me. There was no turning back...
It's been a really long time since I took a slightly sexy selfie... I'm pretty embarrassed to take selfies at this age... I can't look at the camera...lol I've always been a sexy person, so I want to cherish these kinds of things every now and then💓 I'm me, and I think this kind of me is good👍🏻
My recent eating disorder symptoms: When I'm feeling good → I tend to become anorexic, I feel like I can do anything, I "misunderstand" that I'm feeling good, I don't realize that I'm forcing myself, I get addicted to the joy of losing weight, and my fear of eating increases, I "feel" like I can control myself...
Even in this environment, Tsugumi can still say, "My life is blessed," and I really admire her. Thank you for being alive. I want to be that kind of person too.
I can only empathize with the feelings of parents.
I also really like Rapunzel, and I think many second-generation religious people can relate to her. I was actually locked up in my house, so I know how scary it is to be free, and it takes a lot of courage! Freedom is scary. I made a lot of mistakes, but there were also a lot of wonderful things and things I could learn from them.
This song is so good ✨ Disney is the best 🫶🏻💓 I can relate to a lot of things about Rapunzel...
My bra was on inside out 😭 Oh no... This is the front 💓 The lemon charm is cute ٩(`・ω・´)و🍋
I'm sorry I haven't been able to reply to any comments recently💦 Also, I'm sorry for tweeting so many depressing things🙏🏻 I'm finally at the stage where I'm able to face my own problems, so I hope to move forward little by little👍🏻✨...
I think there was a twisted love for my mother, but I can't accept that there was love for my father. However, I was worried about my father, who was disliked by my sister, so I tried to love him in my own way. He reciprocated with violence, yelling, and betrayal. But what I want is fatherhood, and even now I want my father... I'm a daddy's girl.
Recently I went to an exhibition of my favorite illustrator🌸✨ I love Masami Ogura's (@oguramanju) use of color and his worldview, it's very soothing☺️ It gives me energy✨!! In particular, I like his work "Song that Becomes a Star"🌙✨
I participated in a social gathering held by General Incorporated Association Onara (@Onara_hope) for the first time🌸 It is an organization that carries out various activities for people who feel abused or have no place in their home, and for those who have experienced abuse✨ I had the opportunity to meet my idol Tsugumi Okazaki (@tsugumi_okazaki), who is an abuse survivor and the representative✨…